Here I am, updating blog in the middle of the night again. It's currently 1:26 AM. I am interrupting my roommate's sleep with my bright table lamp (gomen, Eru-chan). I can't sleep. I keep thinking about my assignments again and again for the whole week. I kept constantly trying to find ideas for our video project. Seriously, I just can't stop. I can't stay calm if I can't at least have a group discussion with my group members. But, it can't be helped, it's the weekend. Oh God, this is so critical.

Anyway, tomorrow (which is today), I'll have to go to class one hour early because of something small which I prefer not to waste my time typing it here. Until now, I have been so busy with meetings and classes. It's still the second week of the semester and things already got pretty hectic. Even my friend were sulking because I couldn't meet her as often as how we used to last semester. But, I need to know that once the next semester begin, it's going to be a disastrous university life. We'll have to manage tons more than what we are doing right now *cries*.

I have these ideas on making a music video or AMVs (but it's a sad thing that I have yet to learn how to use all those video making software things). This is all because of the beautiful, magnificent AMVs that I have been watching frequently these days. I have been planning to learn it since I was in Form 2 but, one thing led to another and I didn't. WHY RIN, WHY? *cries again* My head can't stop flowing with these brilliant ideas I have but my knowledge of making a video is ceasing the urge to make one! Where did my confidence from high school have gone to?! URGH. I want to learn to use After Effects too. I mean, LOOK AT THOSE GORGEOUS AND PRECIOUS ANIMATION FROM HONEYWORKS. DOESN'T IT MOTIVATED YOU TO MAKE ONE TOO? IT DOES, RIGHT? I'm sorry. I have to express this years pent up conflict somewhere or else I'll explode. Because I couldn't learn how to use all those treasured software yet, I have been keeping all of my ideas and urge to make one in myself for years. I don't know why. Whenever I tried to start to learn it from scratch, things just don't go well. Emergencies came, friend reminded me about assignments/works, got called to do something else, technical problems came up, etc. I just don't have the time! *cries* Even now, when I can't sleep and have the time to open a tutorial, my Internet quota just won't let me T_T. O Allah, only You understand how jealous I got every time I watched the senpais' works. Only You understand how this frail heart felt when I got rejected to join a group assignment just because I don't have the talent to make a video. Only You understand how it feels like to only know cut, copy, separate, and add fonts and decorations in a video. O Allah, what is this madness and humiliation?

(Okay, so moving on to another topic,) I'm currently on a search for new ideas for my official characters background story. I still haven't decide for an outfit for my characters. It's all still in my limitless imagination. Not to mention, my hand can't cope on with anatomy structures anymore, not even the chibi's *creeps to the corner of the room* *depressed*. All I have been doing for this three semesters were writing, reading, writing, reading, and watching Anime. Did my laziness got over me? Or is it just my interest on writing and reading is way more greater than drawing? ...Whatever. I will try to solve this later. Assignments' still on the line. Deadline won't wait. Gotta tough up and do the one in the priority line first.

So, I guess that's all for now~ Adieu~ Matta ne~ Assalamu'alaikum~ Oyasuminasai~ Gonna wake up for Sahur later. If I am awake enough to update another entry, I'll do so, InsyaAllah. Can't leave this blog on hiatus mode for too long or else it will die for no good.

Here I am, updating blog in the middle of the night again. It's currently 1:26 AM. I am interrupting my roommate's sleep with my bright table lamp (gomen, Eru-chan). I can't sleep. I keep thinking about my assignments again and again for the whole week. I kept constantly trying to find ideas for our video project. Seriously, I just can't stop. I can't stay calm if I can't at least have a group discussion with my group members. But, it can't be helped, it's the weekend. Oh God, this is so critical.

Anyway, tomorrow (which is today), I'll have to go to class one hour early because of something small which I prefer not to waste my time typing it here. Until now, I have been so busy with meetings and classes. It's still the second week of the semester and things already got pretty hectic. Even my friend were sulking because I couldn't meet her as often as how we used to last semester. But, I need to know that once the next semester begin, it's going to be a disastrous university life. We'll have to manage tons more than what we are doing right now *cries*.

I have these ideas on making a music video or AMVs (but it's a sad thing that I have yet to learn how to use all those video making software things). This is all because of the beautiful, magnificent AMVs that I have been watching frequently these days. I have been planning to learn it since I was in Form 2 but, one thing led to another and I didn't. WHY RIN, WHY? *cries again* My head can't stop flowing with these brilliant ideas I have but my knowledge of making a video is ceasing the urge to make one! Where did my confidence from high school have gone to?! URGH. I want to learn to use After Effects too. I mean, LOOK AT THOSE GORGEOUS AND PRECIOUS ANIMATION FROM HONEYWORKS. DOESN'T IT MOTIVATED YOU TO MAKE ONE TOO? IT DOES, RIGHT? I'm sorry. I have to express this years pent up conflict somewhere or else I'll explode. Because I couldn't learn how to use all those treasured software yet, I have been keeping all of my ideas and urge to make one in myself for years. I don't know why. Whenever I tried to start to learn it from scratch, things just don't go well. Emergencies came, friend reminded me about assignments/works, got called to do something else, technical problems came up, etc. I just don't have the time! *cries* Even now, when I can't sleep and have the time to open a tutorial, my Internet quota just won't let me T_T. O Allah, only You understand how jealous I got every time I watched the senpais' works. Only You understand how this frail heart felt when I got rejected to join a group assignment just because I don't have the talent to make a video. Only You understand how it feels like to only know cut, copy, separate, and add fonts and decorations in a video. O Allah, what is this madness and humiliation?

(Okay, so moving on to another topic,) I'm currently on a search for new ideas for my official characters background story. I still haven't decide for an outfit for my characters. It's all still in my limitless imagination. Not to mention, my hand can't cope on with anatomy structures anymore, not even the chibi's *creeps to the corner of the room* *depressed*. All I have been doing for this three semesters were writing, reading, writing, reading, and watching Anime. Did my laziness got over me? Or is it just my interest on writing and reading is way more greater than drawing? ...Whatever. I will try to solve this later. Assignments' still on the line. Deadline won't wait. Gotta tough up and do the one in the priority line first.

So, I guess that's all for now~ Adieu~ Matta ne~ Assalamu'alaikum~ Oyasuminasai~ Gonna wake up for Sahur later. If I am awake enough to update another entry, I'll do so, InsyaAllah. Can't leave this blog on hiatus mode for too long or else it will die for no good.